Well, I officially had my first meltdown last night. And, let me say it wasn't pretty. I don't know what sparked it, but when I got in bed I cried for almost an hour. To the point where I went and woke Baylee up and put her in bed with us.
I've decided to stop reading all of this depressing crap on the internet. You know... like she will never be able to get pregnant because it could put so much strain on her and the baby... granted this is 20 years from now, but still. It's drepressing. Or how she needs to stay calm and rest. She's 4... how do you tell a 4 year old to not play or run? It's not easy! I don't want her to miss out on anything because of this horrible disease!
I talked to my friend Brittney today and told her I was exploring all options. There is an herbalist in Rosebud, AR that is a miracle man. A lot of people call him a witch doctor. He creates his own medicines with herbs and helps many people with many different ailments. I called him this morning and left a message. I'm going to see if he's ever helped anyone with Primary Pulmonary Hypertension. Hopefully he will call me today so we can talk about this.
I'm even ready to change our whole diet and go strictly organic. I know doing that has also cured many people... even of cancer! It's also an expensive way to go, but if it would help I will do it.
So, we will see... call me crazy, but I will do anything to help my child not have to suffer the rest of her life!
Hugs - Tiff